Unsolicited Advice

It is a time of unwanted stress when you have to deal with human relations and issues, especially when it is during a time when you need a human help most. To make matters worse is when the human relations issue involved someone I am legally obligated to and that person is my lover's love.

I am sandwiched in between my own needs and comfort and my lover's needs and responsibilities towards his loved one. On top of that, my lover is also sandwiched between his love for both of us. Any conversations or decisions made between both of us will be sensitive. We are practically treading on thin ice, for fear of inflicting any hurt on each other.

Mindful of being a socially responsible human, I try to accommodate to the situation until the last minute, when I need to protect myself and my baby. If push come to shove, I would need to be the bad guy after the birth of my baby as I need to have a good rest for at least a month after that. On top of that, I am hoping that my decision not to put my foot down will not cause me great distress during my one month of confinement. Praying that by being socially responsible, I would have the peace of mind of being well taken care of during the critical period of one month. I hope that there will not be any disturbances or ontoward event that will jeopardize my time to recover from childbirth.

Being aware and very mindful of the current situation is already putting my hair at ends. It does not help that helpful family members try to give their two cents worth and concerns regarding my situation. Whoever does not know that I need to take care of myself and my health first, but I need to also put myself in other peoples' shoes, as a person's sons, and as a person's mother. Unbeknownst to my beloved family member that by thinking their are helping with their advice and concerns that they are putting more stress and pressure on me to do something.

However, being a person who always try to avoid conflict, I will try to take the situation heads-on one day at a time. I do not want to waste my time planning and strategizing a happy-ending solution, especially when I need other people's help and action in my plan. Now I am trying to envelope myself in my own coconut shell, without taking care of the current situation for as long as I can.

Let God help maneuver me out of this sticky situation....