First Half Of The Journey - Completed!

I am officially into the second half of my pregnancy. Today, we are 21 weeks pregnant.

The first 11 weeks went by in a blur. I was sleeping most of the days, having nausea and have a lot cravings for fruits, especially mangoes. Rice was totally out. Cooking was a torture for me. This caused hubby and the boys to have to endure somewhat moderately cooked meals.

Physically, I have been growing from the first day of pregnancy, even without much food. The bust is getting bigger, which is good, and the arms and thigh are becoming thunderous, which is bad. I outgrown all my pre-pregnancy clothes within the first trimester of the pregnancy. Once my nausea was gone and my appetite was back, I gained a whopping 2.5kg within a month! Hope that my weight gain this month will be slower.

Going into the second trimester, I am already feeling like a whale. Even though I am feeling more active and need less sleep as the days go by, I also feel clumsy and lazy to move around, and prefer to sit and face my needleworks whole day. I am doing only the minimum to keep the household functioning. Well, I intend to give in to the laziness and enjoy it for the next 20 weeks. Else, I would have less rest for at least the next 200 weeks after the baby is born, if not more.

Hope the laziness will not turn my hubby off. As it is, I myself am feeling and looking unattractive. The physical appearance may turn hubby off too but I can't help how my body change, can I? Any effort to feel and look like a chick mom is wasted when I look in the mirror and see a big whale. Any reference to me looking like an auntie, be it my look or my dressing, leave me depressed. Don't even talk about the stretch marks that are popping out everywhere throughout my body!

Despite all the physical discomfort and ugliness, I still enjoy the baby kicking me every afternoon, around 3pm, and every night, around 11pm, without fail. The kickings are less intense now, but more consistent. Hmm, I have a feeling the baby will be born at either of these times. Since the baby can hear me now, I need to remind myself to control my voice and temper when talking to the boys so that the baby will not inherit my temper, hehe.

And now, going into the second half of the pregnancy, with the whale getting bigger, we are yet to know if the baby is a boy or girl. The baby is sure a mysterious being, keeping us guessing for as long as possible. A lot of people out there predict that it's a girl, by the look of mummy's tummy. Even dear daddy thinks that it is a girl. No matter boy or girl, we already have a name for the baby. And no expectation here, baby. We will love you no matter you are a boy or a girl.

P/S: Hope we will know the secret by next Tuesday, when we go for our next check up.